The still blue quiet of a snow covered morning

Day 22 of delivering papers. The novelty is beginning to wear off. ProStaff, take me away!

Despite a double feature and dinner with friends, I am perpetually crabby today. What gives? I'm blaming it on no time to myself.

So as I'm sure you've all been waiting with baited breath to see how this story turns, breathe deep my friends.

I have a job.

Okay, okay so my job is to get up so early that the ass crack of dawn is hours away, and deliver newspapers.  7 days a week.  For half of what my husband makes in unemployment.

Translation:  I get out of bed at an ungodly hour so that my husband can make twice as much sleeping like a baby.

Jealous yet?

Don't get me wrong, it's my fault I don't have unemployment, I"m glad my husband does get paid to look for a job.  But really? this is a bum deal.

On the other hand, I like the fact that this gig doesn't interfere with hardly any other jobs.  I can temp, or take a full time position, or work part time at Target.  It doesn't matter as long as I get enough sleep.  Which is easier said then done.  And although it doesn't pay a ton, it will cover all my bills, and my savings are running pretty low.  Hopefully I can scratch together some temping gigs soon.  Christmas is coming, and I'm hoping that I can save enough to be able to go to and get my Nail Tech certificate in a few months.  Then maybe I'd be doing really well.

Divine love always has met, and always will meet, every human need. - MBE

My needs have always been met thus far, why should this time be any different? Right?

Upside of (un)employment-related stress:

Unexpectedly losing 10 lbs in a month with virtually no effort on my part. It's amazing how much you lose when you effectively eat half of what you used to. Just imagine the results if I did crazy things like work out and trade my hohos for apples. We'll also see what happens when I make two seperate trips to the state fair plus one to the renaissance fair during the next four weeks. Stay tuned!

I also believe in knowing how to say and spell a person's name. Your name speaks to the very core of your identity. Show some respect and pay attention to it.

It occured to me that one could substitute grateful for gracious. I strongly believe in the power of gratitude.

My mantra, my reminder, my goal in life

What is the difference between presume and assume anyway?

long time, no . . .

Things to do:

Find a job

Figure out my life

Show more gratitude

I had an interesting run-in today. I ran into my ex-coworker/neighbor today as DH and I were headed to a mid-day date (at least being simultaneously unemployed has a few advantages). I hadn't heard nary a word from her since I was let go. It occurred to me I should duck and hide. But it was too late. I was caught. She saw me.

And she smiled and said hello. What? I was sure she would at least ignore me, if I was unable to hide from her. This was most unexpected. I mean we weren't besties or anything. Just acquantices. She'd invited me over once to meet her dog. And then, when my world was turned upside down, crickets.

We talked about things at my previous post, how we were doing, and she gave me an open invite to come over. She even followed up with a text saying how glad she was that we ran into each other. Shocked, I tell you. Shocked.

But as disappointed I was that I hadn't heard from her up until today, I don't really blame her. I had someone on my never-ending to-call list. I always enjoyed talking with her. But then, when I stopped seeing her at work. Every time it occurred to me to call her, or shoot her line, it was as if I was struck dumb. I couldn't think of a thing to say, a question to ask. So I put it off, and off and finally I convinced myself it had been so long that she would no longer care to hear from me.

I guess now I know how the other side feels.

So I plan to take my neighbor up on her invite. Afterall, it's not like I've got better things to do. And maybe everything, including losing this job, does happen for a reason.

Also, if you excuse me, I have a good friend I need to call. It's been awhile since we've talked and I can't wait to hear what she's been up to.