Today, I feel particularly down. Particularly tired. Particularly lost.

I ordered another "information course".  I don't seem to do well with these, but I don't know how else to learn the skills I want to change things.  Part of me feels like even if it's the wrong step, at least it's a step, and that's worth something.  I guess we'll see.

I can't tell how much of what I feel is there because I actually feel it, or because I anticipated it.  If so, it's going to be a long, hard, rough 4 months through winter.